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Thursday, September 9, 2010

One Month Today




How can I ever forget that day........... I never will
It is the most tragic and saddest day of my life.
I can't even put how I feel into words ,are none to describe how I feel
My John is gone for ever, eternity is a very long time ,its past forever by a long long time
I am too young to be a widow...........what an awful word
I always thought it was for old women but here I am a widow of one month
My life as I knew it will never be the same again
I know my children love me beyond words and I feel firm in their love for me
I also know they are there for me, for anything at anytime
But I feel so alone, like a little leaf........ shivering in the wind
My rock, my protector is gone, torn from ,he was too young to die
Never again I will see the look in his eyes of soft tender love
No more sweet kisses no more long hugs, no more I love you
Just tender memories of our love together
Can that sustain me forever into eternity
Yes
I have known him 45 years and married for 39 of them

How much do I Love Him and how much do I Miss Him
No words needed to describe how I feel

22 comments:

BetteJo said...

Oh Diane, this is just so sad. I am so very sorry. It doesn't seem possible that it's been a month already. Take care ~

Oklahoma Granny said...

May God surround you with the peace only He can provide. Keeping you in my prayers.

Carol said...

My prayers continue for you, Diane. I'm praying that you will feel the peace that God provides.

Love & Hugs,
Carol

Needled Mom said...

My heart is breaking for you, Diane. I simply cannot imagine the pain you must feel all of the time.

sawn61 said...

The kind, soothing words of friends, and time, will ease some of the pain you feel, but I am sure the emptiness will last awhile. I have a sister who lost her husband very early, and there are days when the pain wells up inside of her all over again.Certain things will bring back memories that make you laugh,and then there are some that will make you cry,but laughter and tears are both part of healing,and, I feel, in due time, your heart will heal,too.You'll never forget.The pain will lessen, and your most precious memories of him will remain forever.

Julie Harward said...

What can I say...I want to hug you. I pray things will get better for you. I know that when my husband is gone for a few days, it throws me off balance because I do certain things and he does certain things and together we make it work, God be with you and heal you and bless you. May you find a way.

LJ said...

As I wipe the tears from my eyes I am sending you as much love as I possibly can through time and space and my thoughts. xo

Piecefulafternoon said...

My heart aches - you really do express this very well - my hope is for some peace for you as you travel this lonely road. I wish we could do something to help.

Dolores said...

Diane, I can't imagine the shock of having your husband die so suddenly, so young. This is just so heartbreaking!

Please know how much you are loved, prayed for and thought of during this time of mourning and new adjustments in your life.

I pray that God will surround you with HIS loving arms....
Hugs and Prayers,
Dolores

Linda said...

Dear Diane....my heart hurts for you and yours. I can only imagine your sadness....I pray that in the days to come your will pain will ease and you will find peace...hugs, Linda

Brenda Kula said...

I've been worried about you. I'm glad you posted. I know your heart is full of sorrow.
Brenda

Deb said...

Like Brenda, I have been worried about you, and have looked forward to this post, although I knew it would be extremely heart wrenching to read...as I'm sure it was for you to write it. May God bless and keep you while your heart begins to heal and you somehow work out a new normal for your life.

Brenda said...

I am so, so, sorry for what you are going through. I pray that God will ease your grief sweet lady.

Ninny said...

Diane, I know this pain and longing is overwhelming at times. My heart breaks for you, especially as I write this comment today. One week ago today, a young mother buried her 32 year old husband, the victim of a car crash. My friend is still numb from her loss, and now must raise a two year old without her daddy. I am so sorry that you are going through this loss. I'll pray for you, that God will comfort you in His arms, that He will give you peace. That won't erase the hurt, but perhaps you will be able to put one foot in front of the other, and go on. I hope that you have family and friends who can gather around you during the dark hours and reassure you of their love. And yes, Diane, you will see your beloved husband again one day. He'll be so happy to see you!

Liz

Lib said...

Diane,
I think of you so often and hope each day the pain wil get better!
What Sweet Memories you have !!!
Love,Hugs,Blessins',Lib

Lois Evensen said...

Sweet Diane,

The hurt is so deep when one we love so deeply is gone. I am so sorry.

Warm hugs,
Lois

PEA said...

Dearest Diane, my heart just breaks for you, I can't even imagine how much you're missing him. You have many wonderful memories, a loving family and good friends who will help you through this. Big hugs. xoxox

SmilingSally said...

It must be so tough, Diane.

ATTIC CLUTTER said...

Oh sweetie my heart goes out to you.. so sorry..
I pray for you to heal and find joy again ..we are here for you (:)
Big hugs,Patty

Nola @ the Alamo said...

Diane, I've been so worried about you. It's a tragic thing, but I'm glad to see you writing, maybe that can be a therapy of sorts.
That first photo is beautiful but sad; I can just imagine your tears falling on the paper! Hang in there honey, lots of people love you!

Sharon said...

Diane
I have been thinking about you daily.
I am so sorry and can't begin to know your pain.
I will continue to pray for you and your family.
Hugs

Wendy said...

Diane, I have never visited your blog before today, and I read this post and shed a quiet tear for you. Across thousands of miles of ocean, at this very minute my heart goes out to you - I can not think of one word to lessen the pain of loosing the man you love... May you find comfort and strength in the small, still things that trickle through your days, even if your not ready to look at the beauty that lies there.